Upon talking to a friend of mine I found myself thinking about myself, I remembered what’s been in my mind shouting and screaming causing pain to my life. I came to realise what I’ve had to deal with for along time now. Since the begging of the year I found myself lost in pain from a breakup I began to be blinded, I guess I never noticed that what hurt most was watching from the background, I guess my relationships meant a lot to me and hurt a lot of the time. Being single made me realise I needed this time off away from relationships completely, the one thing I discovered was what some of my mates have been feeling and its true, being single is fun to be able to feel you have no ties in with someone but at the same time it can hurt inside. To watch from the background all your friends find someone they love and to be happy, knowing that’s what you once had is painful to the mind. I guess I never realised how much I missed some people in my life. Sometimes I wonder how much of a lie do I live at times? And how much has been lost already? This time last year everything seemed much happier. This summer seems better in some ways I guess, just glad I have people like Jake and Lewis who can always manage to put a smile on my face, and I guess I aught to say thank you to the other Nathaniel for helping me through with some crap. Just come to realise things aren’t what they used to be and it does seem like I have lost some good friends of mine which is a shame but life must go on so just like this new blog is entitled a new chapter maybe its time I were to going to start a new chapter with my life and move on and I'm sure no matter what I will have my real friends by my side and that’s all I could ever hope for J
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