Well I guess it’s an overdue new blog entry and for once I'm stuck with what to write about to be honest. Today I have been sat in my room crying L I don’t know why but these past few days have just seemed torture. I guess I could say I've hit that point in my life where all hope seems lost. To an extent I'm loosing myself to someone or something I don’t know or understand…who am I?
Until a few days ago I used to have a bracelet left attached almost permanently to my wrist, however that is no longer the case. Since then its been put aside as I have lost my faith, lost my faith in them, lost my faith in myself and lost my faith in life. Right now all I can think about is wanting a hug from that one friend that is always there for me, that someone who manages to put a smile on my face no matter how bad the problem is.
Through this path of emptiness I find myself asking myself who my true friends are in this world, how many of them are friends that are true to their words, the fact when they say something they will do it and mean it, friends who are their to support you when your down. There are a few that I realize are true friends but sometimes I cant help but wish there could be more than that friendship, that hold of loneliness has been there and it does hurt, I have my friends but nothing fills that void. At times I just wish I could have the guts to ask a certain someone out. The one thing I miss most about love is the small things you get from it, such as the hugs and kisses but more importantly that joy of spending time with one another.
I guess I would like to end it here tonight with me just saying. I wish I could spend my life with you just us together just the way it used to be, then I would know when I die it would have been a life worth living, I miss you loads but I’m thankful that you are still in my life x life goes on but the past is never forgotten x
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